Yes, it's true.... I'm sad to say, that even I, although appearing as strong as a rock, can fall.... Yes, us superheroes can be weak... and it's happened to me... I never thought it would.. I always tried to stay away from these things... I've seen how addiction can ruin lives....
I really should know better.... BUT, the start to recovery begins with admitting you have an addiction and I do.. And... I'm going to throw the blame squarely onto Gord & Crystal!
These things are sooo fuckin addictive!! Mu....st... sto...p... eating.... Sour Patch kids
Someone call Dr. Drew!!
Walk On:
Fredericton becomes a skating rink tonight! Ice everywhere, a really super mild day... Yep, be careful on the roads peeps!
When I first heard 'Walk On' in 1994, I thought I had fallen into a time machine and gone back to 1978.... But no, this album came out in '94. Mind you the band had major legal battles with labels and who knows we else... So sounding a bit dated, but Boston, well you just cannot deny them the kudos on the song writing and power vocals... Should be an inspiration for any singer
Yes, yes my friends, 2019 is soon upon us, what will it bring for our planet Earth? Only one way to find out and that is to stick around!
Had a great Christmas with Gordie, Crystal & the family. Always a blast at Gordie with plenty of food, drink and games and not to forget... Santa Claus!
Each year after the kids are asleep, there's a 'present parade' from Gordie's place to Crystal's (They live right beside each other)....
So on Christmas eve, we begin the 'parade'... I leave Gordie's and am outside alone... I hear what sounds like a big dog parking and look behind me to see in the field next to the trailer park the form of a rather large dog that is running towards my direction... Not wanting to stick around, with an armload of presents, I hobble a little faster towards Crystal's place and just as I'm reaching her driveway I glance back again and see the dog is just coming up over this berm and is quite large and still barking...
So I race for Crystal's front door, juggling the presents as I turn the handle and look once again to the street in time to see....
A very large dog, barking, but not looking at me, it races by Crystal's wearing .... A Santa Claus suit... I know, I know.. Yes, I smoke pot, but I swear to all that's not holy, that I saw this.. A large dog with a Santa hat and it had a coat on... Fucking weird!
Christmas eve morning, I am up very early and see the planet Venus blazing in the sky.
A few years ago Crystal, Gord and the kids rescued some little itty bitty Kitties that one of the parks free-range cats gave birth to under her trailer.
The kitties, Echo and Sox, are growing quite well and it used to be that Sox was out everywhere, kinda brave enough to see who was around and Echo was very shy and skittish.
After they got 'fixed', apparently this all changed and Sox was now super skittish and quite scared of any strange voice in the house... But, I'm not strange to them. I have a bond with kitties. People don't believe me, but I do. I respect the cats young and old. I love cats, they kick ass with their air of independence and sometimes mysterious nature...
I don't know if anyone there realizes I've bonded so close with both the cats, when everyone was sleeping, they'd come and visit.
You can see from this video that 'Sox' is not frightened nor skittish with me at all. Such great kitties. Made me miss Elsa.
On Christmas morning, Venus was so brilliant that it was still glimmering brightly in the morning sky.
Christmas morning with the gang:
The kitties stop by to say goodbye on Boxing day...
So, before Christmas I was pretty bummed... I had written a couple weeks before Christmas that Terry and Joanne Daly were coming up for Christmas, but we were going to miss each other, completely... I was heading to SJ as they arrived in Fredericton and they were heading back to Chester, Nova Scotia as I was coming back from SJ... Every year since I'd come home I'd spent some time with them at Christmas.
Terry and I go way back... Way back to 1990 and Dreamkick's very first show at the Oromocto rec center.
We had hired 'Ace Productions' a lighting and sound company out of Fredericton to give us a kick ass light show and hopefully made us sound great at our 'coming out' show. We hit the stage with a roar!
Terry Daly & David Campbell ran Ace productions and being a singer, not having much to do, I asked if I could do anything to help them and they put me to work laying down power cables, mic cables, setting up stands...And from there I kinda ended up 'apprenticing' with Dave and Terry, we had many crazy adventures together, a couple of life or death situations and Terry and I remain close friends to this day. When I moved back and the day that Alita went to sleep, Terry and his wife and her family were there for me. Joanne's daughter Jessy Wyman (formerly Jessy Ashfield) is a local musician and Joanne also has two other daughters. Her Daughter Sammie after bringing up two huskies ended up in a rough relationship and at one point I was her only candidate for taking in the dogs should she need someone to, lol, and this I was told! But I would have obliged.
When I had my oral surgery, Terry picked me up after and took me to stay with them for a few days as I recovered. They like the Fields and the Browns are my 'second family' and I love them dearly.
On the day before Christmas eve, I had got a message from Terry saying that they were going to stay Boxing day, so we could get some time to hang out (I mean, not just to see me, but other people too)... But, that was a great present. I hung out with Terry and Jessy's husband Peter, plus a couple of his buds and Terry and I's friend Karl Dunnett (who is a local drummer).
Anyhow! Back to Christmas at Gordie's!
SO, on freaking Christmas day night, I'm walking from Crystal's to Gordie's, once more I find myself alone and as I walk to Gord's, as I come around the corner from Crystal's, there's two deer, pretty close to me in the field... Now the deer thing, that's a whole other story... Saint John and a few other cities are having real problems, as the cities encroach further into nature, nature reciprocates by encroaching more into urban areas... The deer in large numbers... BUT, I've seen in my whole time(s) staying at Gord's like 6 live deer and not together, some stays I wouldn't see any, for a full couple years i didn't see any... So that evening I was surprised to see them so close and I said, "HI deer!" and this fucking deer, turns and looks at me and then starts to charge at me LOL... So, once again I beat the feet and make it to Gordie's door in the nick of time! Not a good Xmas for me with weird animals!
So, what did I get? I got some awesome clothes and hats, Winter gear, a crazy glass zombie decanter and I got a new bookshelf and the 'big' present a 4 week astronomy course at UNB!
I'll begin that in mid April (so HOPEFULLY), Winter is done by then lol... But I'm excited for that and to have the money to get a new tripod for my DSLR and the camera adapter for my telescope, so I can show ya's video and photo's of our solar system from my eyes!
Neat huh?
No plans for New Years eve... I DO want to get the Marvel graphic novel for the Infinite Gauntlet series... It's basically the Marvel 'movie' series we've been seeing in theaters over the last like decade all wrapped up into a graphic novel, this 'Infinite stone' plot was written back in the 1990's and unlike most Marvel comics, it's pretty dark and brutal. So I hope to get that in the next day or two... There's an alleged "storm" coming tomorrow into Saturday night, so I'm hoping I can pick up the graphic novel tomorrow and be able to cozy up with it as the 'storm' rages, If it manifests itself at all.....
Season's Greetings and Merry Christmas from all of us here at 'There's No Way Back From Here'... Please enjoy my favorite Christmas time film: 'Scrooge' the 1970 version with Albert Finney and Alec Guinness.
Today as I'm walking home, heading up Regent Street, there, they are constructing some new apartment complex and it has this, actually really nice wooden fence put up to stop people from getting into the construction site... As I'm approaching the section of sidewalk that is parallel to this fence, there's a young lady, who is walking towards me, but she's looking at the wooden fence, she then stops and places her hand on the fence and closes her eyes.. standing there, with her eyes closed, the palm of her hand pressed firmly against the fence.... Was she communing with the wood? The fence? Was it some sort of Vulcan mind meld:
I dunno, but it was certainly a weird moment.. After pausing in this position, she then began to move along the fence, eyes still closed and hand still firmly against the fencing... She then opened her eyes to notice me looking at her and she smiled as we passed each other.... Maybe she just likes wood.....
Speaking of walking, I saw a story on CNN.com the other night about walking and mental fitness. It would seem that not only is walking good for the heart, and body, legs, muscles etc... But also good for the brain. A study has shown that 6 months of walking (Not continuously) is most excellent for reversing cognitive decline... lol So the less walking you do, the stupider you get? LOL. That doesn't seem totally right, but walking is great. I love walking, I've been a walker all of my life, well except for the months i was in the wheelchair, but I was a roller then! Walk&Roll!
But I find it really helps me. Walking has always given me time to think about problems, deal with worry and stress and just help me to have the general peace of mind that I have today
From the article:
""Our operating model was that by improving cardiovascular risk, you're also improving neurocognitive functioning," said lead study author James Blumenthal, a clinical psychologist at Duke University. "You're improving brain health at the same time as improving heart health."
When it comes to living longer through exercise, is more better?
When it comes to living longer through exercise, is more better?
Many experts "are already convinced about the benefits of lifestyle interventions to reduce risk of Alzheimer's and cardiovascular dementia," said Dr. Richard Isaacson, who directs the Alzheimer's Prevention Clinic at Weill Cornell Medicine. "But for those who are not, this study is a randomized, clinical trial that illustrates the benefits.
"You can do something today for a better brain tomorrow," said Isaacson, who was not involved in the research."
Get out there and walk!
It's over, done shopping for the 'kids'... Will be a good Christmas this year. I tried as best as I could to buy all presents from downtown... I do have a great respect for local businesses and try as much as i can to give as much of my business to downtown... I rarely go to the mall... In fact, having bloodwork at the hospital about every month or two I've been popping into the mall to get some stuff... And I knew that I'd probably have to end up there at some point ramping up to the holidays, yesterday was it and I was there early enough that it was absolute stupid huemahn chaos... I must say I do love going to Walmart, it's got some of the most awesome looking people that go there lol... It's like an ark of inbred huemahns ended up smashing into the Walmart and they got shipwrecked there haha
Ahh the people of Walmart!
Don't be insulted if you shop there my friends, for you are apart of the Beautiful People!
Oh! Just in time for Christmas! A new music video from 'Ghost'
Don't take long... People always ask, "is it warmer with or without a beard?" - I don't know haha.... I can tell you, you get a lot more 'snot' on your upper lip in the cold!
The house next door.... Not salvageable... I ran into one of the guys who lived there at the mall today and had asked him if the place was a write-off or if he thought it might be saved and he looked at me, pulled out his phone and show me... That place is NOT salvageable in the least... The inside was a horror show... So scary and one of my bigger 'fears'... I try to make sure everything I can is off or at a safe point, but with old houses, you sometimes just don't have any control over what MAY happen.... Fingers crossed....
This morning after I had got ready to head up to the DECH for bloodwork, I was looking out my big picture window that faces towards the house that caught fire..... While looking outside I noticed something, something ... odd....
We had fresh snow the last 24 hours and in the snow were foot tracks that came from the sidewalk out front and went down the driveway and ended at the door to the garage/barn.... So, the odd part? There were NO returning footprints... There were tracks going to the door and that was it..... So, was someone inside?
I put my boots and jacket on and made my way over to the house... I walked down the driveway, noting, that yeah, these footprints went to the door and went inside. The door was shut, but the lock, well the lock was intact BUT, someone had unscrewed the screws that held the components to the lock on the door, so it looked like someone had walked in the place and never left... They could very well be still inside....
I came back in and called 911. The guy said, "Well, did you go inside and check?" ... LOL... I said, 'No, no I didn't because IF there's someone in there, I don't want to confront them and it's not my property"... They said they send some one over right away.
As my neighbor and I were pulling out of the driveway the first police car pulled up, so we waited and I got out and went and spoke to the officer... As i was speaking to her another two police officers pulled up and I told them about what I'd seen and the only 'other' tracks there were mine... So they went down the driveway and into the garage/barn... I don't think they were in there but 5 minutes and came out, no stranger in tow... So they kinda brushed off the whole idea that someone broke in and was in there... I mean ok, you took less than 5 minutes to check the place out, I don't believe they checked the upstairs at all and they just felt that maybe one of the students had come back to get something...
Well, there's a couple problems here. I know, to see, all of the students who rented that place and YES, I'd seen them come by, use a KEY to open the door and get stuff leave, bla bla bla... So, WHY would one of them need to take apart the lock to get in AND, the biggest fucking unanswered question by ANYONE, WHY did the footprints GO in... but NOTHING came out??? Did whomever it was fucking sprout wings and floated out? Is there a tunnel out that I don't know of??
So, someone could still be in there for all I know.. Albeit once I'd returned from my day out of bloodwork and doing some Xmas shopping for my Bro's fiancee's kids, there were all kind of tracks coming in and out of the place, the lock is still as it was.... So who knows... But something fishy is going on....
Don't know how or why, but 'Rise Against' landed in my brain today....
I totally forgot to post about this crazy seal dream that I had.
Sadly I have forgotten most, ok all of the dream, except for this 'segment' where it didn't appear to be that the dream was taking place on a boat, but.... I recall climbing down some steps, almost like a ladder, in fact it was like the steps on the houseboat I spent a few days on last Summer.
As I'm coming down the steps, at the bottom off to the side a bit, there's a hatch in the floor and coming up through the hatch is a seal, and I think that the damn squirrels that have been stalking me (Please note, I'm not being serious here) have infiltrated into my psyche and that's what the seals represented and I was saying, 'No!' to the seal just like I do with Jerkface the wonder squirrel!
So I'm saying, 'No! Get down you can't come up here !' But unlike the squirrel the seal comes up and of course is 'barking' as they are known to do and it's passing me on the steps going up to where ever that was I came down from and I vaguely remember someone up there was freaking out and saying, "No, no stop the seal from getting up here, we'll never get it out again!!"
And that's really all I can remember.
Thanks for coming!
Not the seal from my dream but a reasonably hand drawn facsimile
I can't believe I just spelled 'facsimile' right
I've got a buddy online, he's on of the few members of a group of people from all over the World who meet up in a private chat room to discuss science, physics, history, conspiracy, technology and space ventures, and he's just got a book deal for a non-fiction series called 'Book of Man'. You can find a video series of his works on Vimeo. The guy is fucking brilliant and while I do not subscribe to much of his beliefs and what he's uncovered doing his own research, I do admire the guys discipline to go after a subject and chase it down where ever it has led him. I'm hoping some day soon, to collate all of these blogs that have my 'life stories' in them and write my biography... I dunno if anyone would buy it... I don't know what I could teach anyone from my life... Don't stay in school if you think you can survive the World without graduation? Maybe that's a good lesson... For some people... Anyhow..
'The Book of Man' deals with huemahn history and how it 'sprung' up on this planet. What I do like about Brian's work is that once it gets into familiar ground for me, as in pre-history of huemahnity before the end of the last ice age, history during the Younger Dryas period (The time when after the last ice age, all of a sudden the Earth was thrown back into a "mini-ice age" and during this period it is believed either an asteroid hit the North American ice sheet as well as other parts of the Northern hemisphere or there was some kind of plasma event, either from our Sun or an extra-solar source) and after the Younger Dryas ended and OUR history began (which is pretty much where christian folk think history began because of the global coastal inundation of water ('Noah's Flood), due to the quick melt of ice sheets DUE to the possible asteroid that hit them!).
This last Friday Brian said that he'd stumbled upon a whole well of new information about our ancient history.
I've spoken about Gobekli Tepe before and how it's some 11,000 years old and pre -dates Stonehenge and the Giza Pyramids by thousands of years. Some historians and archaeologists are dubbing it the birth place of civilization.
Now, of course this isn't make believe Adam and Eve stuff here, before Gobekli Tepe there were tribes and gangs of nomadic and semi nomadic hunter gatherers, but Gobekli Tepe is said to be the First organized structure building in huemahnity and MAYBE that's where our civilization began... But what if there's some place older...
Enter Aratta.
If you query online about Aratta you will or may find a small wikipedia entry that indicates 'Aratta' as a mythical Sumerian land.... But what if Aratta is not a myth? There's been many so called 'myths' that have become true history and for as much as I bash it, SOME of those 'mythical' and 'legendary' places and times have been found to have existed...
Likewise this could happen with Aratta.
Archaeological digs in the Ukraine for decades have unearthed a culture that it would seem pre-dates Gobekli Tepe and has elaborate neolithic structures, mounds, burial practices AND a writing that seems to be proto Sumerian and of course the Sumerian's are said to be the one's who invented language..
Example's of Arattan art and writing/symbols
This Aratta culture put out such fantastic pottery that Picasso himself was moved and stunned that such an ancient culture could make such elaborate and intricate art...If I'm not wrong, but I think I remember from one of the videos I watched, it said that some of Picasso's later works were influenced by what he had seen in the Ukraine.
So this is what Brian laid out for us... Did those who taught their 'technology' of carving, art, religious practices, medicine and farming come from Aratta's people, who may, because of the changing climate, water inundating lands move South into the 'fertile crescent', teach their ways to the hunter gatherer's there and thus our civilization had it's fuse lit.... It's very interesting and possibly history changing information.
Such exciting times we live in, sometimes lol... I just hope huemahnity makes it long enough for us to learn some real truths of our past and our future.
Mari Mason really has nothing to do with this entry, I was just listening to him while writing.
These things are sooo fuckin addictive!! Mu....st... sto...p... eating.... Sour Patch kids
